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Monday, May 15, 2006

Mon, 15 May 2006 00:41:00 GMT

Final Fantasy & Grizzly Bear meet Mariah

enjoy enjoy enjoy!

in other news, we are having a foreign exchange student from august to november. school's almost over, which is good and kind of sad, but mostly good. my friend and i have recently, as of friday, begun writing a short play. it's exciting times 10 and i hope it works out. i've also been trying to write some new material and hopefully (fingers crossed!) erich can get me some recording time.
summer break is less than a month away! i want to see YOU, so lets definitely get together.

xo, becca

Thursday, April 27, 2006

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 22:33:08 GMT

EXCITEMENT!

1.we might have a foreign exchange student from Chile living with us next year!!
2. my hair is 6 inches shorter than it was when you last saw me. it's curly and pleasant
3. i'm seeing gypsy in an hour! i will be in the company of a very-missed home for the evening
4. annie has three more performances

but what's not so exciting is how i feel extremely vulnerable. i enjoyed what was taking place, but now i'm a little confused on basically everything. i wasn't asking for this, boy

Friday, April 21, 2006

Fri, 21 Apr 2006 00:14:19 GMT

things are good! life is good! it shouldn't be, but it remarkably is! i'm still confused on a matter and it's annoying me to all ends. nothing ever works out and i guess i'm going to have to get used to that. fuck! this always happens.

But is it not enough to be complete? Please? Let me give you everything you need, please? We found a way, we found a street. Directions sweat under the sheets. And I let you have it, let you have it. But it can be a lonely place. Desire comes, desire fades. There's a bright one caught your fancy eye. It's okay so long as you stay mine. And I'm so number one that it's a shame, a shame. That you let other numbers in the game

Sunday, March 26, 2006

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 01:07:59 GMT

i'm listening to guggenheim grotto carry in the spring fever

learning to love you more

an assortment of assignments i'd like to try, headed by miranda july. my first task will be to draw a constellation from someone elses freckles.

fuck, it's hard to forget. fuck, why are you still there. and fuck, why am i here.

Saturday, March 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Mar 2006 18:13:16 GMT

life is good.

the weather is beautiful.

new things evolve.

and flames finally run dry.

life is good.

"Regretful it's the time of year for letting go. Wasting all my time 'cause you just tease me. Please leave me alone. Scared of the feeling of you coming home. I'm leaning out the open windows. Looking into the alley below. Rooftops black and the moon's hanging low."

Sunday, February 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Feb 2006 17:37:23 GMT

I've been planning a trip for while...it's always been in the back of my mind and today I decided to do a rough sketch of how it will go...note, this will happen before I die. A simple calculation of transportation, including only major cities...US$7752 to US$9302

//tonight my heart feels a little heavy...

let's take a walk cross the tennessee river, and let our feet feel the walnut bridge. and as the wind cools down the summer, watch it all fall asleep again

Saturday, January 28, 2006

Sat, 28 Jan 2006 03:01:07 GMT

today was my birthday!

a thanks to everyone who made it existant in memories and let me feel good. permit and driving time!! i'm so excited in my knee-high socks and chivarly.

all in all, this was a good day. i feel like clutching my arms around someone at this moment, but there's no one in the room. i'm happy in my establishment and i'm looking forward to what lies on. strange how things end up...as i sit here, my eyes are transfixed on the printed names and addresses on this envelope. how the ink is smudge across the words...and how my name jets diagonally in one corner. it all collides with the green veneer. bestowed inside is a card, signed "love, dad." and i do believe my one wish will not be answered this year...

But don't don't lose hope no no no no
No no no don’t feel sad cause it's a violent world
But there's still beauty
I'll take care of you if you take care of me
I like to sit and listen to the sound
Of the snowflakes landing on the trees
But I can't get used to feeling cold
I can't get used to what has happened here to you and me
There's no escaping so I won't try
It's just the heaviness that comes with knowing you will never die

Sunday, January 22, 2006

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 04:42:18 GMT

this song came clear to me tonight, reminding me of the beauty i held one cold drowsy night. in the backseat, watching as the city went by. things seemed right at that moment. it fit, it wasn't forced. all i could give was smile and stare out from the frosted windows...

"Love of mine some day you will die/But I'll be close behind/I'll follow you into the dark/No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white/Just our hands clasped so tight/Waiting for the hint of a spark/In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule/I got my knuckles brusied by a lady in black/And I held my tongue as she told me/"Son fear is the heart of love"/So I never went back/You and me have seen everything to see/From Bangkok to Calgary/And the soles of your shoes are all worn down/The time for sleep is now/It's nothing to cry about/Cause we'll hold each other soon/The blackest of rooms/If heaven and hell decide/That they both are satisfied/Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs/If there's no one beside you/When your soul embarks/Then I'll follow you into the dark"

things are rough right now. i feel like i'm tumbling down one step at a time. there are no more trees branching out for my hands to grasp as i swing on and on, and if there was, i think i'd become stubborn and breeze them by.... !!! enough, just listen to the song.

edit// i've come up with a new playlist with all new bands including:taxi, taxi!, in ink please, the foilage, page france, dealership, secret handshake, the kissing book, vehicle flips, irving, kite operations, the like young, awesome new republic, compute, all my brother's girlfriends, voxtrot, greek embassy, okkervil river, and of montreal. enjoy!

i've given in: http://spacingapart.blogspot.com/

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Jan 2006 02:50:04 GMT

"brooklyn bound train" is my favorite Ltrain one-liner

i'm fond of my hands, that's all. that's it.

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 02:11:50 GMT

everything is rolling along nicely. i couldn't have asked for a better start to the new year. it was fantastic, despite driving on a snowy new york thruway with an average speed of 35 mph for 90 miles. in the end, everything happened. and we finally arrived. it felt good. good to get away from all the knots built up here, to get away from the tension, to get away from the haunting sadness. lets go 2006!

and these words traveled through the wires, seeped out into my headphones, flourishing the surrounding stillness and the air taken in by my lungs. in, in, out. in, out. my eyes opened wide...looking out into the open morning sky, filled with softened snow flakes and rolling white tops hugging the clouds. roots embracing the buttoned coldness of the sky, reaching forward with their fingers, huddled over the pines. the bashful sun poured over the horizon, the melody ran shooting over the hum....

"There's one thing I want to say, so I'll be brave. You were what I wanted, I gave what I gave. I'm not sorry I met you, I'm not sorry it's over, I'm not sorry there's nothing to say..."

and it left my lips in a wonder. cutting across my face in the shaken silence. they stayed put, placed one over the other. slightly pouted, slightly moist. my eyelashes blinked black, carressing its lids with a warm haze. batting one, two, three. in, in, out. in, out.

naked.and alone.shivering over the cold glass